Chinese food + vanilla yogurt, now~
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
NOOOO
I just realized I didn't look for short monologues. They are so long. What's this, I never had a memorizing class. This is like History, now we can read.
We'll see.
I don't have to take class during the summer because I wanna have fun. I dunno, but I do wanna go there in the Spring. Seems easy. Hm, not many requirements. Maybe, I can take classes from Ginny after. Funny, though, it'll be a long time in with different people. I will miss Ginny more than most people, I think. I can still watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Hey, they are both born in 1958, but there is nothing wrong with that. It seems to go well with the problems from my mom. My aunt is younger.
Spring '14
cheap state and not Florida|Louisiana|Pennsylvania
not Georgia bc I wouldn't like it already know Maggie Elizabeth Jones
Nevada has LV
Ugh. I want to study at NMSU and I guess see if I can afford private lessons from Ginny over the summer so maybe I can apply for the Spring, take music there. I see they have a nice Theater Arts program, but that's not what I come for.
not Georgia bc I wouldn't like it already know Maggie Elizabeth Jones
Nevada has LV
Ugh. I want to study at NMSU and I guess see if I can afford private lessons from Ginny over the summer so maybe I can apply for the Spring, take music there. I see they have a nice Theater Arts program, but that's not what I come for.
Woke Up
So, I *********** twice. It happens. The thing is I go -to do it- and like I don't want to literally be the 1 to do it like I did when I was 7. Then, I do it. Then, if I'm not tired - if I am, I roll over, look up into the ceiling and don't see it, roll over and don't know what happens then, really.. Then, if I'm kinda awake by then.. I just kinda, you know, never feel any 1 intense moment - and then I wake up and rat about it like it's *** in the building and maybe I'm just a porn bunny.
So, I had a bad dream. Last night I remember Ellen DeGeneres like maybe she had touched me and was wrestling with me I think with my arms wrestling hers. So, I remember I was on 1 side of a bed in the living room with my mom and like my brother online sending a cutesy evil message. Ginny was on the other side, a bit taller, maybe from bad frozen pizza.. and some things happened, like I rolled over onto the floor it seems and stuff like that and she was like ratting on about the summer and me missing her, not realizing how fast 3 month go by. So, she hugged me and I didn't feel anything and was thinking about the rest of this month. :|
So, I had a bad dream. Last night I remember Ellen DeGeneres like maybe she had touched me and was wrestling with me I think with my arms wrestling hers. So, I remember I was on 1 side of a bed in the living room with my mom and like my brother online sending a cutesy evil message. Ginny was on the other side, a bit taller, maybe from bad frozen pizza.. and some things happened, like I rolled over onto the floor it seems and stuff like that and she was like ratting on about the summer and me missing her, not realizing how fast 3 month go by. So, she hugged me and I didn't feel anything and was thinking about the rest of this month. :|
So
I was looking at the hold on my record. It disturbed me, greatly, because I have a right to attend this school more than anyone else. I don't have to.
Anyway, I know people will be mad at my teacher and the counselor for this fun as shit. I don't know, you just wanna curse at me and make up shit. BECAUSE I WON'T TAKE IT.
I'm getting weird shit you think life is about my dad, but what if I'm better than him-
GINNY WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOIN. If you turn me in, you have to tell me why BEFORE, YOU. What right do you guys have to do this? You made me mad, and I spoke to some people about you. You probably caused it. :| You just know, I'd do it again and then hurt you, huh. Well, you are so mean. I can do whatever I want. Leave me alone. WTF you think you are. HUH. Answer, now.
Anyway, I know people will be mad at my teacher and the counselor for this fun as shit. I don't know, you just wanna curse at me and make up shit. BECAUSE I WON'T TAKE IT.
I'm getting weird shit you think life is about my dad, but what if I'm better than him-
GINNY WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOIN. If you turn me in, you have to tell me why BEFORE, YOU. What right do you guys have to do this? You made me mad, and I spoke to some people about you. You probably caused it. :| You just know, I'd do it again and then hurt you, huh. Well, you are so mean. I can do whatever I want. Leave me alone. WTF you think you are. HUH. Answer, now.
Tired
Need to go to bed, want Pizza Pockets or thin pizza, probably not doing nothing for Easter. Maybe fasting tomorrow. I think that's all, probably can't show up for mass. I like Ash Wednesday..
Looking @ More Pictures
I found her skinny, like me, but she had to get fatter, and I don't know why. It looked like she was in trouble for something about it, after you think about it. It was something about like it being annoying to like say you're sunken in but fat. I didn't get fat. I mean, I've been eating healthier than before, have to eat stuff I like, you know good stuff, Cracker Barrel, but I've had Pizza Pockets. My dad just got thin pizzas. Ugh, no sushi.. I mean, it's good but it's evil. I had more meals, yesterday, ate out 3 times, today, in a way. I only had a bagel and PB for breakfast, though. ;/ Ugh, I can't remember. This picture was like 2009, possibly 2008. I really don't get it. Is it some thing about not being a minority ethnicity, though? What was it.. I think it was that like she said it was like something for her but like something she did was wrong. Like, maybe she was mean and didn't do something, you know? She was unable to have a good time. Um, it was probably wrong because like she didn't do something and tried to say she did but was being tacky, like thin but like she needed to be fatter but didn't really look thin. :| I think Ginny would have thought that she didn't deserve anything. Um, I already am onto something in my life, though, you just think I'm unattractive, don't like my parents, and that I don't have any thoughts.
I am very interested.
So, I am looking at pictures of Carolyn, and I noticed her mom was really strict. Like, I saw 1 girl looked more like her daughter than her. Her mom is taller. There was another girl who looked like me. Then, I saw a picture of her with Ginny. Um.. So, like, I know, you're supposed to like fix yourself up, but you'd say like um what did I do huh? No one would care. You'd just kinda sit there and in the end just pull out as a mixed reaction. I guess Ginny would be pretty strict. I just am someone who deserves something and was locked away by Tim Burton and my dad in Orlando, which I like. Can I tell you why? Because it's Florida. Do you know about that? I grew to love the love of the exoticism and I mean don't wonder about room and proportion. I used to live here, and coming back is like a joy from Heaven. It is so nice. It's the people who move here who are all mean. It's true. It's a secret. I mean, I guess that the mom wasn't interested. Like, she thought the girl was so pretty, but I mean it was rude. Like, I mean, I don't know if she really thought that, but I MEAN I DON'T THINK THAT STUFF. As with Ginny, I mean, what. I am a good person, locked away, used to be more detailed, but I mean if you're not white and you wanna be what do you do? I might be an invalid, but I mean so are you all. I used to be more alive and sorta got all the gush sucked outta me when I posted @ Tim Burton, and now no one likes me. I'm so lonely, you know? I was really so mad when he didn't talk to me. He stopped. I was in an experiment and thought I was supposed to for fun and mad with racism call his daughter the N word. I don't take my dad's racism, and he leaves me little shits around about it. You all can't love me. You just love my parents. My life was always like busy. When my mom came in, I was rather poking a stick at her to get back at Ginny. I guess my mom is more of a person, you know? Just, I lived out my European side, in a way. I mean, I grew up with my mom because of race and um I guess because I -am- a girl. What are you doing with my dad? I mean, I don't take the flaws of my mom. Also, I am very interested in everyone's racial problems. ,=D
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